People Come And People Go

It sucks when you get close to someone and then you know that you will no longer have them in your life every day. My coworker Melissa's last day is tomorrow, and even though I give her a lot of shit I am going to miss her. I hope she knows she can still call me when she is in need or just to chat. Its going to be weird not being able to tell answer your mom to all her questions. Also Charlie is leaving this week end to move to Atlanta. I have just started to get to know Charlie, but it sucks to have such a great guy move away. Man tomorrow is going to suck. I have been overly sentimental about weird stuff lately and I feel like I may cry tomorrow. Going to have to calm myself down, just tell myself don't be a little bitch, don't let them see you cry. lol.

Vegas Vaca.

Wow what a week end trip! Sierra, Rhianna, Mike and Bo meet us in Vegas. Unlike them we drove up Thursday night. We really need to start flying to places that are that close. lol. I thought we would be going out every night but instead we ended up drinking in the room and laughing for hours. We did go do all the walking around and only ended up going out to a club on Sunday. The girls and Cory and I went to Red Rock's park Sunday morning even though I said I did not really want to. Actually I told them to drop me off at the Venetian so I could go shopping but they said no. So I tried jumping out at a red light and again they would not let me. So I was dragged to Red Rocks unwillingly. It was not so bad, it was actually fun. Rhianna cut her toe on a cactus and Cory and Sierra fell . I guess it was worth going out there to see that happen. I find a nice shirt at a good buy just as beautiful. We also went to see Zumanity at New York New York and was sooo disappointed. I wonder if I could complain and get a refund. I just hope they don't send me tickets to see it again because I don't think I could sit through it again. The only thing I really enjoyed in the show was the two girls doing their act in the water bowl. But I think that's only because me and Sierra are in competition to see who does a better job. I think Sierra and I might have our routine down a little bit better. I wonder is Sie will have mastered the head stand I showed her before our Oregon trip. I will have to make sure she is practicing and not slacking off. Hmmm, I also wonder if Rhianna ever found those zip off shorts that we know she loved so much?!?! And if she found the matching jeweled thong.

Poop on racism!

Last week a friend of mine was telling me about her new years trip to New York. She is middle eastern and told me that at one point while trying to get info from a cop she felt like she was being racially profiled. The cop waved his metal detector around her as she asked questions. It was as if she had done something wrong just for asking directions. It struck a nerve when I heard this. I went to lunch with another friend on Friday and I told her the whole story about what happened to my friend. She told me that New York had been through so much with 9/11 and that they viewed things differently because they were there when it happened. It was almost as though she was saying it was ok to racial profile because of what they had been through. I didn't say much about it after because I disagreed with what she had to say and didn't really want to get into it with her.
Today I was listening to the podcast " This American Life." This weeks episode featured a Muslim Mom talking about how peoples racism after 9/11 had hurt her oldest daughter. Listening to the Mother and daughter talk about how bad it was at school for her made me so sad and so angry. This little girl in fourth grade was treated so badly. Hearing The mother crying as she's telling her story made my vision go blurry, I wanted to hold her and tell her that this was so wrong to have happened. Eventually they had to move because the children at the school made life so horrible for the poor girl and her siblings. Worst was that it all started from what the teacher had said to the children in her class. I wont go into any more about the podcast but if you want to hear it download it its episode #322 Shouting across the divide.
After listening to all this I cant help but realise how much racism is still accepted by so many people. It saddens me to think that because your look different, have a different accent or a different religion people will easily turn their backs on you. Be so hateful so arrogant about how right they are and how wrong someone else is. Some times I just look around and think wow we as humans can be such ass holes.

Family Overload

My mother has been at my house since this past Saturday. My nephews came on Christmas day. I think I am going to go nuts if she stays until next week. I love my family, but I am just not used to having my Mom a 2 1/2 year old and a 6 month old in the house. The baby is whiny, the toddler is running all over the place, and my Mom just seems to get louder every time she calls to them. I feel soooo tired. I feel exhausted. Yesterday I went home from work early because I worked through my lunch and in the evening I wondered if I should have just stayed at work. It makes you think twice about having more than one kid. I think one would be more than enough at this moment. I know Cory is freaking out because of the kids being there. Mostly because he thinks my sister should take responsibility and take care of them instead of my Mom, and I agree with him but what are you going to do?? I wonder if my parents felt like this when they had my sister and me??? Did they just want us to go to sleep and not wake until the next morning?? I guess I should go home and ask.

Visiting with an old friend and ostriches

I had a dream last night that I saw an old friend that had passed away. It freaked me out a little because in my dream I knew that he had passed. But in my dream this friend was very at peace. While he was alive he was always very grungy and rockish. Not someone that would dress up. In my dream he was clean cut and wearing a light colored suite and just seemed so at ease and at peace with everything. I have no idea why he was in my dream. Especially because right before then he showed up and right after, I was in what was supposed to be my house with a pack of ostriches. I woke up and other than dealing with these ostriches my old friend Alex was the only other thing I could remember. It kind of feels like the peacefulness of my friend leaked into my day. All morning everything just has seemed a little bit quieter a little less cold. Its interesting how a dream can change your day. Or maybe it's just seeing an old friend that can change your day.

Corys Big B Day!

I am very excited about throwing Cory his birthday party this coming Saturday. Its a big one and we have never had a party to celebrate his birthday. We have gone out to dinner with friends and ussually he shares it with another friend because they share the same b day. So he has never really had his own day. Well not since I have known him. Even tough he said he did not mind not having a party I know he is very excited about his party. After all you only get to celebrate your 30th bday once. Cant wait!

Holidays are here again.

The Christmas season is here. I always get anxious around this time of year. It seems like you never have enough money for everything you need or want to do. I always feel bad that I cannot get every person at least a little something. I also hate going to the malls this time of year. Every place is filled with people and the closer it gets to the 25th the more people are running into you being rude and just basically not caring that they are trampling over everyone to try and get one more present. I just realized I have a little under 2 weeks to go shopping and I have not even started. What a mess! I always bitch and complain about all the shopping and dealing with the holidays and family, but truthfully I love watching my family open up their gifts. It makes most of the stress worth it .... well some of the stress worth it.