Break Ups

Its hard to hear when friends of yours have broken up. A really good friend of mine and his boyfriend broke up yesterday. Lets call them Sam and Timmy. I feel really bad for Sam he is really struggling with the idea of not being with Timmy. I would have to say I am closer to Sam than I am to Timmy but after so many years of them being together I feel that Timmy and I have become friends. They still are going to live together but Timmy wants to date other people and wants there to be no jealousy. I really really doubt that its going to work. I was still living with my ex when Cory and I got together and boy the story from the first date Cory and I had is a crazy story which people still say and you still dated him. Maybe Sam and Timmy will get back together, maybe they wont. I think that Sam will need me more than Timmy so I will be there for Sam just like he would be there for me. It's always sad to see friends break up especially after years of being together but sometimes it turns out to be a good thing for both people. Man and I thought I was going to be posting about how I was annoyed at project runway last night!

Elevators & Strangers

I am up and down on the elevator a lot when I am at work. At least once a day I get some perfect stranger trying to have a conversation with me. I think people think they are being nice by talking to you in the elevators. I cant stand it! If I don't know the person usually I will pull out my cell phone or stare forward after the obligatory smile at whoever just came in to the elevator. I don't get why they have to comment about the weather or how its almost time to go home, or how the elevators are running slow that day. Why cant they just be quiet?? I really don't get it, maybe I am just donut have good elevator etiquette but I don't think this is going to change. Oh and the farting in the elevator inexcusable!

Waste of Time and Energy

Some people never change. I don't know why I let this person get to me. He has always been pretentious and Cory says he was this way even a long time before I saw it. You would think that after years of not talking to him for this reason I would know that he will never change. I am no longer going to waste any more time thinking that maybe one day it will be different. I guess I have been thinking about giving people more chances than they deserve lately and I should just think about friends that are true friends and be happy with them. I just need to stop looking back. Well I have to say my day can only get better because well I got the B.S. already taken care of today!

Fat Tuesday

Yesterday we went out and celebrated fat Tuesday at Bourbon Street. We ended up going super early, eight thirty, and realized we were way to early for the party. Luckily my friend Heather came and met us and then our friend's Keith and Shane met us. Gabe joined the group around ten since he had to work. We ended up having a great time and spent more time there than intended. I am very proud to say that out of our group I came home with the most beads. Not because I was showing my business to everyone but because I was great at catching beads being flung from the balcony. I did share my wealth with Cory and Gabe since they each had two strands of beads. It was fun people watching and there was even a contest for the most beads. The winner won five hundred bucks. Pretty nice chunk of change for beads. It was fun at first but then people started getting aggressive about trying to get you to give them your beads. Two lesbians at, different times, were trying to get my beads for their friends and I had already told them no and they persisted on trying to get my beads one even saying your not going to win so why not just give them to her. Then when I told her I like them and don't want to give them away she said that's like voting yes on prop 8. I almost smacked her! I could not believe she would say that, dumb dumb, dumb. At that point I just ignored her. One guy at least said he would buy me a shot if I gave him my beads, I told him give me my shot and my beads are yours. He didn't go through with it, but I would have easily have given them to him if he was close to winning since he wasn't trying to beat me into submission with guilt like the others two. In the end our cue to go home was when someone , who shall remain nameless, began triple kissing with two other people. No it was not Cory or I! So after a fun night I have to figure out what to do with all these damn beads I insisted on keeping. I am guessing they will sit in the spare bedroom until spring, summer, or winter house cleaning.

No Phone

I hate forgetting my phone at home. I did that today and all day I feel I never knew what time it was. I am home now and I am happy to have my phone back. 

Biker

I was driving to work this morning and there was a guy riding his bike to I believe school. He was in his mid to late 20's and what struck me was his appearance. He had on a t shirt, track pants, his helmet and bag. I But as he is flying by the only thing I really notice is that his pants are just low enough that they are showing off about an inch and a half of his ass. It was hard to stop seeing it since every time I reached a stop light he would come flying down from behind to show his behind. At one point another biker came from behind me and it looked like he noticed the other guys lack of proper bike gear. I would think that he would notice the breeze but apparently he was clueless about it. If I am ever riding a bike down the street with an inch and a half of ass showing please shoot me, or pull my pants up so I know I am doing it!

Sick

Today is not a good day. I feel sick and people want me to actually work. It is not fun at all, I just want to go home and curl up in bed. It started Saturday night when I woke up because of a horrible ear ache. Not fun! I really really want to be in bed now.

My Boyfriend Thinks I'm Blind

Today Cory asked me how everything looked in the shower without my contacts or glasses. I told him it looked fine. He then asked well is it blurry?? I told him no its not. I can see fine up to a certain point. I just cant see things far away very clearly. He apparently thought that since I use my contacts or glasses all the time that I was as blind as a bat. Its interesting to find out your boyfriend thinks of you as Mr. Magoo!

Postponned fire drill because of rain

We where scheduled to have a fire drill today, but they cancelled it because of the rain. I don't get it. Do they think that if a fire occurred it would make a difference if it was raining outside?? I know it would be cold outside and you would have to wear your jacket, but if you came to work today you would know it was raining and would have brought an umbrella. I just don't get it. Maybe I am also a little cranky because someone who lives with me kept me up later than planned because he would not stop opening bottles of wine last night so our guest didn't leave until late. On a good note the caterers could not be called off so there is free breakfast in the lobby this morning. Yes they give us a treat for doing the fire drill, they have to bribe us somehow to make us go down 20 flights of stairs. =)

Sign Throwers

No, not the gangster types. Do you ever wonder if those guys throwing around advertisements signs on corners of the street get schooling for it?? Well I do. It doesn't look easy and most of the time I am afraid they are going to drop the sign on to the street in front of a car or hit someone walking by. Maybe in school they get extra training on how to avoid people walking by. Maybe its a required class that you must pass before you get your sign throwing diploma. If so I want to go to this class to see if I can pass. I am pretty clumsy and I always said that I could never be a server at a restaurant because I would drop every tray that I had to take out. This might help with that fear and maybe lead to a long second job as a server. I do have strong doubts about it, I feel like if I did take this class I would probably get a C which I would think would be a failing grade for the job. But I did see some kid throw his sign behind him the other day I doubt he received an A in sign throwing class. If he can do it there is still hope I can get a week end job in the places with not so high of standards.

He said yes!

Man it sucks to go back to work after you have been on vacation for almost two weeks. Well we went on Vacation to Oregon, it was wonderful. I guess a big thing that happened was that I asked Cory to marry me, and he said yes!!! It was actually very hard to try and set up and do. I decided that I was going to be romantic and spell out the words will you marry me in rocks in the back yard of the house. But he wouldn't leave me alone, I kept trying to get him to leave me alone and he wouldn't. Finally I just did most of it while he was inside the house entertained by our friends. Aorron helped me out a bit with the rocks, Cory just would not leave me alone enough. lol. Thanks Aorron!! So now we need to start planning a wedding, don't know when we will have the ceremony or anything. I think Cory is still getting over that I really popped the question. I just like making him blush by calling him my fiance. I will recap the rest of our Oregon trip tomorrow. Brain is not working to well today.

People Come And People Go

It sucks when you get close to someone and then you know that you will no longer have them in your life every day. My coworker Melissa's last day is tomorrow, and even though I give her a lot of shit I am going to miss her. I hope she knows she can still call me when she is in need or just to chat. Its going to be weird not being able to tell answer your mom to all her questions. Also Charlie is leaving this week end to move to Atlanta. I have just started to get to know Charlie, but it sucks to have such a great guy move away. Man tomorrow is going to suck. I have been overly sentimental about weird stuff lately and I feel like I may cry tomorrow. Going to have to calm myself down, just tell myself don't be a little bitch, don't let them see you cry. lol.

Holidays are here again.

The Christmas season is here. I always get anxious around this time of year. It seems like you never have enough money for everything you need or want to do. I always feel bad that I cannot get every person at least a little something. I also hate going to the malls this time of year. Every place is filled with people and the closer it gets to the 25th the more people are running into you being rude and just basically not caring that they are trampling over everyone to try and get one more present. I just realized I have a little under 2 weeks to go shopping and I have not even started. What a mess! I always bitch and complain about all the shopping and dealing with the holidays and family, but truthfully I love watching my family open up their gifts. It makes most of the stress worth it .... well some of the stress worth it.

Rainy Friday, party anyways.

I am so glad it is Friday. Also its raining and I love it. I have always loved when its raining. You can bring out all your blankets on the couch and no one can tell you to put them away. Unfortunately I don't get to do that tonight. Instead I am going to my friend JA's house for a little party. I don't know what the reason is for the party other than Shane wanted to have another party like the last time he came down. I also heard a rumor that there might be strippers coming. Which means I have to go get some ones! lol! I cant wait for the work day to end!

What do you do if an X friend returns???

So what do you do when a person that used to be your friend wants to be your friend again?? I guess I should elaborate. This person that I was really good friend started dating someone and started ignoring me and my other friend. I was a little annoyed at first because he did not want to date this guy to begin with and only because my friend and I talked to him did he decide to give the guy a chance. That's kind of beside the point. So I tried keeping in touch and being a good friend and hang out and stuff, but he always had something to do or his boyfriends friends to hang out with. Eventually I just gave up. I believed that if our friendship was that important to him then he should have tried to make more of an effort. Now after a couple of years we have started seeing each other at a friends parties, we are cordial but I don't go out of my way to make myself available to him. But he kind of hints that he wants to at least maybe hang out some time. I don't know how I feel about this. Well I do know how I feel about it, I don't feel like I want to. I think that maybe there is still a bit of anger that he would have let our friendship fade when we were supposed to be best friends. I know, I know what your thinking. He was dating someone he needed his space. But that was sooooo not the case. If you want details you will have to ask in person because I don't feel like putting them all on here. I just don't think I want to put any more effort than I already had into that friendship. Sometimes its just better to let it be what it was. One of my good friends told me " It is what it is until its not!" So I don't think I can move on from what happened to our friendship and I am happy with the friends I have now. It may be mean but I cant change how I feel about it. At least not right now.

English YAY!! Math not so much.

I took my assessment test today for college. I was a little nervous but it wasn't so bad. I found out that I am eligible for honors English and that I am a idiot when it comes to math. I am not surprised, I expected to do bad. I was sooo soo bad. Its been a very long time since I last really used any math other than basic crap. I am at glad that I at least scored really well in English. I think I would have been really upset with myself if I did badly in that. So I may be an idiot in math but I make up for it in English! Go me!

Back To School

I have enrolled in school. I am a little nervous just because I have not been in school in about 10 years. I feel like a real dork just because I feel like maybe I should have started this years ago and just let it go. I still feel like I don't know what I want to go to school for. I keep looking at these different majors and none of them click in my head and say this is what I will do with my life. Its a bit freaky to be 27 now and still be so confused about where I want to go. I am glad that I am at least going to start. Everyone always tells me to at least start taking classes and then you will find out what you want to do. I guess that's what I am doing.

Halloween fun

Our building has an annual costume contest in the lobby. All of the offices are encouraged to dress up and come down. This year only two of my fellow coworkers dressed up. One dressed up as a gift. Shasta actually came up with the idea and made it herself. It was really creative and she should have taken first place in the costume contest but received second place. First place was taken by this stupid vampire pirate girl. LAME! She only won because she had on some crazy contacts that made her eyes look all weird. She has already worn them, she won last year because of them. No creativity! My friend was gypped! I told Shasta that we would go jump her and take the $100 gift certificate since it was rightfully hers. The other girl should have been disqualified since she had already sort of used that costume last year. Maybe next year If I am a bit bitter about loosing a costume contest she will help me retrieve my gift certificate.

My friend Melissa also dressed up today (sort of) and is mad at me about her outfit. She was supposed to come as a gypsy. Instead she came in and wanted to be a lion like I had first told her to be. She has a lot of hair and is she made it big and had some lion ears, smokey eyes and a tail I thought it would be great. Well she comes to work in all tan and wants to be a lion after all and wanted me to make her into a lion. I didn't know what to do. She made her own ears and then painted her nose and whiskers. She ended up looking like a mouse. Jerry to be exact, you know the mouse from the Tom and Jerry cartoons. Not because she had a very good mouse costume but because she was all in tan. I think she is mad because she wanted to really look like a lion after all. Maybe she should have come as a gypsy.

San Diego on fire

All week we have been dealing with fires going on around the county. Its a little bit freaky, luckily the fires are not close enough for us to have to evacuate. Work was closed Monday and Tuesday, so I spent most of my time at home flipping back and forth from channel's watching the news. The air has been bad all week but today its a bit worse. As I walked to my car pieces of ash were falling. I hope that it gets better soon.

Blurry Contacts

Today I woke up and realised I should open up some new contacts. I think its been over two weeks since I changed them. On the way to work my left eye kept bothering me. It felt like something was in my contact. Then I taught that something was on my sunglasses so I am sticking my finger in my eye trying to move around my contact, and cleaning my glasses. Once I get to work I am still freaking out about my eye. I think I may have wasted an extra right eye contact by accidentally putting it in my left eye. So I am in the elevator checking by putting my hand over my right eye while looking through my left eye. OH MY GOD,Its blurry! I am freaking out now thinking I did stick my right contact in my left eye. So I call Cory at home to ask him to count how many contacts are left in the boxes. He tells me there is a 5 in each box. So what the hell did I do??? I know I didn't reuse an old one. But I have no idea what contact I have in my eye. Then Cory tells me oh and you have an unopened contact sitting on the counter. So my dumb ass has just been rubbing my eye and freaking out because I forgot to put in my left contact. Great! lol. It makes me feel sooo smart.