Family Overload

My mother has been at my house since this past Saturday. My nephews came on Christmas day. I think I am going to go nuts if she stays until next week. I love my family, but I am just not used to having my Mom a 2 1/2 year old and a 6 month old in the house. The baby is whiny, the toddler is running all over the place, and my Mom just seems to get louder every time she calls to them. I feel soooo tired. I feel exhausted. Yesterday I went home from work early because I worked through my lunch and in the evening I wondered if I should have just stayed at work. It makes you think twice about having more than one kid. I think one would be more than enough at this moment. I know Cory is freaking out because of the kids being there. Mostly because he thinks my sister should take responsibility and take care of them instead of my Mom, and I agree with him but what are you going to do?? I wonder if my parents felt like this when they had my sister and me??? Did they just want us to go to sleep and not wake until the next morning?? I guess I should go home and ask.

Visiting with an old friend and ostriches

I had a dream last night that I saw an old friend that had passed away. It freaked me out a little because in my dream I knew that he had passed. But in my dream this friend was very at peace. While he was alive he was always very grungy and rockish. Not someone that would dress up. In my dream he was clean cut and wearing a light colored suite and just seemed so at ease and at peace with everything. I have no idea why he was in my dream. Especially because right before then he showed up and right after, I was in what was supposed to be my house with a pack of ostriches. I woke up and other than dealing with these ostriches my old friend Alex was the only other thing I could remember. It kind of feels like the peacefulness of my friend leaked into my day. All morning everything just has seemed a little bit quieter a little less cold. Its interesting how a dream can change your day. Or maybe it's just seeing an old friend that can change your day.

Corys Big B Day!

I am very excited about throwing Cory his birthday party this coming Saturday. Its a big one and we have never had a party to celebrate his birthday. We have gone out to dinner with friends and ussually he shares it with another friend because they share the same b day. So he has never really had his own day. Well not since I have known him. Even tough he said he did not mind not having a party I know he is very excited about his party. After all you only get to celebrate your 30th bday once. Cant wait!

Holidays are here again.

The Christmas season is here. I always get anxious around this time of year. It seems like you never have enough money for everything you need or want to do. I always feel bad that I cannot get every person at least a little something. I also hate going to the malls this time of year. Every place is filled with people and the closer it gets to the 25th the more people are running into you being rude and just basically not caring that they are trampling over everyone to try and get one more present. I just realized I have a little under 2 weeks to go shopping and I have not even started. What a mess! I always bitch and complain about all the shopping and dealing with the holidays and family, but truthfully I love watching my family open up their gifts. It makes most of the stress worth it .... well some of the stress worth it.

Rainy Friday, party anyways.

I am so glad it is Friday. Also its raining and I love it. I have always loved when its raining. You can bring out all your blankets on the couch and no one can tell you to put them away. Unfortunately I don't get to do that tonight. Instead I am going to my friend JA's house for a little party. I don't know what the reason is for the party other than Shane wanted to have another party like the last time he came down. I also heard a rumor that there might be strippers coming. Which means I have to go get some ones! lol! I cant wait for the work day to end!

What do you do if an X friend returns???

So what do you do when a person that used to be your friend wants to be your friend again?? I guess I should elaborate. This person that I was really good friend started dating someone and started ignoring me and my other friend. I was a little annoyed at first because he did not want to date this guy to begin with and only because my friend and I talked to him did he decide to give the guy a chance. That's kind of beside the point. So I tried keeping in touch and being a good friend and hang out and stuff, but he always had something to do or his boyfriends friends to hang out with. Eventually I just gave up. I believed that if our friendship was that important to him then he should have tried to make more of an effort. Now after a couple of years we have started seeing each other at a friends parties, we are cordial but I don't go out of my way to make myself available to him. But he kind of hints that he wants to at least maybe hang out some time. I don't know how I feel about this. Well I do know how I feel about it, I don't feel like I want to. I think that maybe there is still a bit of anger that he would have let our friendship fade when we were supposed to be best friends. I know, I know what your thinking. He was dating someone he needed his space. But that was sooooo not the case. If you want details you will have to ask in person because I don't feel like putting them all on here. I just don't think I want to put any more effort than I already had into that friendship. Sometimes its just better to let it be what it was. One of my good friends told me " It is what it is until its not!" So I don't think I can move on from what happened to our friendship and I am happy with the friends I have now. It may be mean but I cant change how I feel about it. At least not right now.

English YAY!! Math not so much.

I took my assessment test today for college. I was a little nervous but it wasn't so bad. I found out that I am eligible for honors English and that I am a idiot when it comes to math. I am not surprised, I expected to do bad. I was sooo soo bad. Its been a very long time since I last really used any math other than basic crap. I am at glad that I at least scored really well in English. I think I would have been really upset with myself if I did badly in that. So I may be an idiot in math but I make up for it in English! Go me!