Family Overload

My mother has been at my house since this past Saturday. My nephews came on Christmas day. I think I am going to go nuts if she stays until next week. I love my family, but I am just not used to having my Mom a 2 1/2 year old and a 6 month old in the house. The baby is whiny, the toddler is running all over the place, and my Mom just seems to get louder every time she calls to them. I feel soooo tired. I feel exhausted. Yesterday I went home from work early because I worked through my lunch and in the evening I wondered if I should have just stayed at work. It makes you think twice about having more than one kid. I think one would be more than enough at this moment. I know Cory is freaking out because of the kids being there. Mostly because he thinks my sister should take responsibility and take care of them instead of my Mom, and I agree with him but what are you going to do?? I wonder if my parents felt like this when they had my sister and me??? Did they just want us to go to sleep and not wake until the next morning?? I guess I should go home and ask.

Visiting with an old friend and ostriches

I had a dream last night that I saw an old friend that had passed away. It freaked me out a little because in my dream I knew that he had passed. But in my dream this friend was very at peace. While he was alive he was always very grungy and rockish. Not someone that would dress up. In my dream he was clean cut and wearing a light colored suite and just seemed so at ease and at peace with everything. I have no idea why he was in my dream. Especially because right before then he showed up and right after, I was in what was supposed to be my house with a pack of ostriches. I woke up and other than dealing with these ostriches my old friend Alex was the only other thing I could remember. It kind of feels like the peacefulness of my friend leaked into my day. All morning everything just has seemed a little bit quieter a little less cold. Its interesting how a dream can change your day. Or maybe it's just seeing an old friend that can change your day.

Corys Big B Day!

I am very excited about throwing Cory his birthday party this coming Saturday. Its a big one and we have never had a party to celebrate his birthday. We have gone out to dinner with friends and ussually he shares it with another friend because they share the same b day. So he has never really had his own day. Well not since I have known him. Even tough he said he did not mind not having a party I know he is very excited about his party. After all you only get to celebrate your 30th bday once. Cant wait!

Holidays are here again.

The Christmas season is here. I always get anxious around this time of year. It seems like you never have enough money for everything you need or want to do. I always feel bad that I cannot get every person at least a little something. I also hate going to the malls this time of year. Every place is filled with people and the closer it gets to the 25th the more people are running into you being rude and just basically not caring that they are trampling over everyone to try and get one more present. I just realized I have a little under 2 weeks to go shopping and I have not even started. What a mess! I always bitch and complain about all the shopping and dealing with the holidays and family, but truthfully I love watching my family open up their gifts. It makes most of the stress worth it .... well some of the stress worth it.

Rainy Friday, party anyways.

I am so glad it is Friday. Also its raining and I love it. I have always loved when its raining. You can bring out all your blankets on the couch and no one can tell you to put them away. Unfortunately I don't get to do that tonight. Instead I am going to my friend JA's house for a little party. I don't know what the reason is for the party other than Shane wanted to have another party like the last time he came down. I also heard a rumor that there might be strippers coming. Which means I have to go get some ones! lol! I cant wait for the work day to end!

What do you do if an X friend returns???

So what do you do when a person that used to be your friend wants to be your friend again?? I guess I should elaborate. This person that I was really good friend started dating someone and started ignoring me and my other friend. I was a little annoyed at first because he did not want to date this guy to begin with and only because my friend and I talked to him did he decide to give the guy a chance. That's kind of beside the point. So I tried keeping in touch and being a good friend and hang out and stuff, but he always had something to do or his boyfriends friends to hang out with. Eventually I just gave up. I believed that if our friendship was that important to him then he should have tried to make more of an effort. Now after a couple of years we have started seeing each other at a friends parties, we are cordial but I don't go out of my way to make myself available to him. But he kind of hints that he wants to at least maybe hang out some time. I don't know how I feel about this. Well I do know how I feel about it, I don't feel like I want to. I think that maybe there is still a bit of anger that he would have let our friendship fade when we were supposed to be best friends. I know, I know what your thinking. He was dating someone he needed his space. But that was sooooo not the case. If you want details you will have to ask in person because I don't feel like putting them all on here. I just don't think I want to put any more effort than I already had into that friendship. Sometimes its just better to let it be what it was. One of my good friends told me " It is what it is until its not!" So I don't think I can move on from what happened to our friendship and I am happy with the friends I have now. It may be mean but I cant change how I feel about it. At least not right now.

English YAY!! Math not so much.

I took my assessment test today for college. I was a little nervous but it wasn't so bad. I found out that I am eligible for honors English and that I am a idiot when it comes to math. I am not surprised, I expected to do bad. I was sooo soo bad. Its been a very long time since I last really used any math other than basic crap. I am at glad that I at least scored really well in English. I think I would have been really upset with myself if I did badly in that. So I may be an idiot in math but I make up for it in English! Go me!

When neighbors become ex neigbors

This past week end I hung out with my ex neighbor's and good friends Diego and Ricardo. Its been over a month since they moved out and it still sucks that they didn't stay. We didn't do much other than play skipo, sorry and chat but we had a good time. It made me realize how much I miss them being right across the hall from my place. I know they aren't that far away, but it isn't like I can just jump to their door and be a pain in their ass like I used to be able to. Cory always told me that I shouldn't bother them so much. I told him if they didn't want me bothering them that they would tell me to go away. I hope whenever the new neighbors move in they will be as cool as they are. Actually what I really want is another gay couple or single gay, preferably guys, to move in next door. So if you are planning on buying a place talk to me! lol.

Back To School

I have enrolled in school. I am a little nervous just because I have not been in school in about 10 years. I feel like a real dork just because I feel like maybe I should have started this years ago and just let it go. I still feel like I don't know what I want to go to school for. I keep looking at these different majors and none of them click in my head and say this is what I will do with my life. Its a bit freaky to be 27 now and still be so confused about where I want to go. I am glad that I am at least going to start. Everyone always tells me to at least start taking classes and then you will find out what you want to do. I guess that's what I am doing.

Halloween fun

Our building has an annual costume contest in the lobby. All of the offices are encouraged to dress up and come down. This year only two of my fellow coworkers dressed up. One dressed up as a gift. Shasta actually came up with the idea and made it herself. It was really creative and she should have taken first place in the costume contest but received second place. First place was taken by this stupid vampire pirate girl. LAME! She only won because she had on some crazy contacts that made her eyes look all weird. She has already worn them, she won last year because of them. No creativity! My friend was gypped! I told Shasta that we would go jump her and take the $100 gift certificate since it was rightfully hers. The other girl should have been disqualified since she had already sort of used that costume last year. Maybe next year If I am a bit bitter about loosing a costume contest she will help me retrieve my gift certificate.

My friend Melissa also dressed up today (sort of) and is mad at me about her outfit. She was supposed to come as a gypsy. Instead she came in and wanted to be a lion like I had first told her to be. She has a lot of hair and is she made it big and had some lion ears, smokey eyes and a tail I thought it would be great. Well she comes to work in all tan and wants to be a lion after all and wanted me to make her into a lion. I didn't know what to do. She made her own ears and then painted her nose and whiskers. She ended up looking like a mouse. Jerry to be exact, you know the mouse from the Tom and Jerry cartoons. Not because she had a very good mouse costume but because she was all in tan. I think she is mad because she wanted to really look like a lion after all. Maybe she should have come as a gypsy.

San Diego on fire

All week we have been dealing with fires going on around the county. Its a little bit freaky, luckily the fires are not close enough for us to have to evacuate. Work was closed Monday and Tuesday, so I spent most of my time at home flipping back and forth from channel's watching the news. The air has been bad all week but today its a bit worse. As I walked to my car pieces of ash were falling. I hope that it gets better soon.

Blurry Contacts

Today I woke up and realised I should open up some new contacts. I think its been over two weeks since I changed them. On the way to work my left eye kept bothering me. It felt like something was in my contact. Then I taught that something was on my sunglasses so I am sticking my finger in my eye trying to move around my contact, and cleaning my glasses. Once I get to work I am still freaking out about my eye. I think I may have wasted an extra right eye contact by accidentally putting it in my left eye. So I am in the elevator checking by putting my hand over my right eye while looking through my left eye. OH MY GOD,Its blurry! I am freaking out now thinking I did stick my right contact in my left eye. So I call Cory at home to ask him to count how many contacts are left in the boxes. He tells me there is a 5 in each box. So what the hell did I do??? I know I didn't reuse an old one. But I have no idea what contact I have in my eye. Then Cory tells me oh and you have an unopened contact sitting on the counter. So my dumb ass has just been rubbing my eye and freaking out because I forgot to put in my left contact. Great! lol. It makes me feel sooo smart.

Homing Pigeons

I was walking back from picking up my lunch today when a whole bunch of rats with wings fluttered and landed in my path. Like everyone else around I looked around to see if any were flying above me because I did not want to get shit on or touched by these gross animals. Amway's I walked past the pigeons and started thinking about how these birds can be used to send messages. I wondered how do you train them to fly somewhere and fly back? I picture a pigeon with a string tied to its legs and a man holding the piece of string leading it wherever you want it to go. Like what you did with a June bug when you were a kid!!! Maybe that was just my weird family, I don't know. That is the only way I can think of training the thing to go to places. I cant get it out of my head so I had to look it up. I came up with sites but nothing really explaining what you must do. Also I don't want to spend money on getting this question answered so I started getting discouraged when I kept getting sent to sites to buy a book on training them. Why wont anyone just tell me. I guess I am left to imagine that yes I am right people tie strings to pigeons and walk them around as they fly to train them to come back.

Me + Early Morning = Not Nice

I had to take my boyfriend to the airport today at 6 in the morning. Hes going to New York for a conference. I also had to be to work 7 today because my coworker called me last night and said that his daughter was sick. So Cory (my boyfriend) wakes me up at 5:55 to get him to the airport. He is already running late. This puts me in a bad mood because It leaves less time for me to stay in my nice hot shower. So I am pissy. Why couldnt he ask a friend to take him to the airport?? Why do I always have to be the one getting up early to take him? Then I remember oh yeah I am his boyfriend and I should be nice about this. Plus I wont get to see him for 5 days! So I let it go and am just driving dreaming of my nice shower. I get home and I have 5 minutes to take care of the dogs, take a shower, and get out the door. Oh and then Cory missed his flight, luckily he was able to get on another flight. Good for him, I might have had to get pissy again about having to get up early and him staying. lol.

Satan's Lottery Ticket

I went to a wedding this week end and at each table they had placed a lottery scratcher for each person. Really cute idea, I love the chance of winning something. I was the only one at my table that actually won! There was a problem though. On this lottery ticket you had three chances to win, all you had to do was match up three numbers in a row and you would win the prize specified. I matched up one row and won another ticket, but my number was the number six. I asked if anyone wanted it because I know I probably wont turn it in for my winnings. But no one would take it because it bore the dark mark. lol. I took it home and it is probably going to sit on my dresser until it falls behind it or my boyfriend throws it away. I have been thinking about it today and maybe the devil will make me rich in exchange for my soul and the gods have planned it this was just to see how it would play out. Maybe they are all up there laughing waiting for me to cash it in and become a millionaire. Maybe I should go home at lunch time and cash it in for my new ticket. Really what am I waiting for?? I should tell my boss my destiny is waiting and leave right now to turn it in!

Fake jeans are a no, no!

Maybe its me but I cant stand when people wear those things that look like jeans but are not. I see them unusually on people the are getting to their 50's. Maybe I am just making more of it than I should but its soooooooo wrong. Maybe when I am 50 I will look back on this and see why I was wrong in saying that people should not be wearing them. But at this moment I cant. Just cant help it. Sorry to all you fake jean wearing people!