Really?

Really some times you just hate nights like this. Not tired, bad night and in your head all you can say is really??? I hope tomorrow with my SD family will make it so much better. Wow it was a harsh night!

Break Ups

Its hard to hear when friends of yours have broken up. A really good friend of mine and his boyfriend broke up yesterday. Lets call them Sam and Timmy. I feel really bad for Sam he is really struggling with the idea of not being with Timmy. I would have to say I am closer to Sam than I am to Timmy but after so many years of them being together I feel that Timmy and I have become friends. They still are going to live together but Timmy wants to date other people and wants there to be no jealousy. I really really doubt that its going to work. I was still living with my ex when Cory and I got together and boy the story from the first date Cory and I had is a crazy story which people still say and you still dated him. Maybe Sam and Timmy will get back together, maybe they wont. I think that Sam will need me more than Timmy so I will be there for Sam just like he would be there for me. It's always sad to see friends break up especially after years of being together but sometimes it turns out to be a good thing for both people. Man and I thought I was going to be posting about how I was annoyed at project runway last night!

Chiropractor

I know it has been forever and I think I said before I would post more and then forgot. Well here is me trying again. This week was my birthday and I went to see the doctor because I felt as though I had pulled something in my back from all the coughing I had been doing and it was starting to get worse. Yes It took me three weeks to go in and see him because Ii believed it would go away. So after a couple of days of Cory telling me he didn't want to hear it I made an appointment. I went in and he says I pulled something and gives me drugs and wants me to see the Chiropractor to get my back adjusted since that is were most of the pain was. I went two days ago and am going again today. I debate if he really is worth it, I guess it's because I feel like I am paying someone for a big hug. Yes he rubs my back a little, and puts ice on it but when it came to what he was going to do it felt like a really uncomfortable hug really close to his crotch. I guess I should not complain though, at least he is not so bad looking. I will have to comment once I get back from him later.

Elevators & Strangers

I am up and down on the elevator a lot when I am at work. At least once a day I get some perfect stranger trying to have a conversation with me. I think people think they are being nice by talking to you in the elevators. I cant stand it! If I don't know the person usually I will pull out my cell phone or stare forward after the obligatory smile at whoever just came in to the elevator. I don't get why they have to comment about the weather or how its almost time to go home, or how the elevators are running slow that day. Why cant they just be quiet?? I really don't get it, maybe I am just donut have good elevator etiquette but I don't think this is going to change. Oh and the farting in the elevator inexcusable!

Straight and Gay Roles

My boss and I were chatting last week about T.V. shows and she said that she cant see Porcha di Rossi playing a straight woman in a new series coming out. She said that she can only see her playing lesbian roles and wasn't going to be able to see her in any other light. I asked her so when a straight man plays a gay role do you always say oh I cant see him as gay?? She said it was different. I asked her how so and she really couldn't explain it. I said its not really different at all. they are all actors and are playing a part. If everyone portrayed themselves they wouldn't really be acting. I find it odd when people say wow he was so great when he played that gay role! Mainly because its only great when a straight person does it. You don't hear praises about Rupert Everett in My Best Friends Wedding when he played gay, and he was great in that movie. I feel like there is a double standard about it and it really bugs me. 

Olympic Dreams

I dreamt last night that I won the gold medal in the Olympics for swimming. It was invigorating and was getting my picture taken with the team and then in an individual pic with two other people. Then this little brat came over and said that it was fine that I won but that my technique was horrible and that I only scored a 68. I corrected him and told him it was a 69 and that it was my first time in the Olympics so I would only improve. Imagine in my own dream someone trying to burst my bubble. Ill show him next time and get a better technique score.

Small Sep Toward Green Work

This week my work has decided to take some step's to going green. They finally decided to have all the employee's in the office use the filtered water from the fridge instead of supplying tons of bottled water. It is a great start except for the fact that now instead of piling up tons of plastic bottles it will be disposable cups. I know this because even though we have coffee cups stock piled in every kitchen on every floor no one uses them, they use disposable cups instead. I started bringing my reusable water bottle a couple of weeks ago so I feel like I am a little ahead of everyone else. I feel it does help me drink more water than I did before, and I can even make tea and stick ice in the bottle and make ice tea! Today I am having blueberry iced tea and it is yummy! So I am waiting to see how long this lasts before these people start whining and they bring back the water bottles. I hope the office admin sticks to her guns and says quite whining and deal with it! Now if only I could get them to stop using so much paper.

Waste of Time and Energy

Some people never change. I don't know why I let this person get to me. He has always been pretentious and Cory says he was this way even a long time before I saw it. You would think that after years of not talking to him for this reason I would know that he will never change. I am no longer going to waste any more time thinking that maybe one day it will be different. I guess I have been thinking about giving people more chances than they deserve lately and I should just think about friends that are true friends and be happy with them. I just need to stop looking back. Well I have to say my day can only get better because well I got the B.S. already taken care of today!

Fat Tuesday

Yesterday we went out and celebrated fat Tuesday at Bourbon Street. We ended up going super early, eight thirty, and realized we were way to early for the party. Luckily my friend Heather came and met us and then our friend's Keith and Shane met us. Gabe joined the group around ten since he had to work. We ended up having a great time and spent more time there than intended. I am very proud to say that out of our group I came home with the most beads. Not because I was showing my business to everyone but because I was great at catching beads being flung from the balcony. I did share my wealth with Cory and Gabe since they each had two strands of beads. It was fun people watching and there was even a contest for the most beads. The winner won five hundred bucks. Pretty nice chunk of change for beads. It was fun at first but then people started getting aggressive about trying to get you to give them your beads. Two lesbians at, different times, were trying to get my beads for their friends and I had already told them no and they persisted on trying to get my beads one even saying your not going to win so why not just give them to her. Then when I told her I like them and don't want to give them away she said that's like voting yes on prop 8. I almost smacked her! I could not believe she would say that, dumb dumb, dumb. At that point I just ignored her. One guy at least said he would buy me a shot if I gave him my beads, I told him give me my shot and my beads are yours. He didn't go through with it, but I would have easily have given them to him if he was close to winning since he wasn't trying to beat me into submission with guilt like the others two. In the end our cue to go home was when someone , who shall remain nameless, began triple kissing with two other people. No it was not Cory or I! So after a fun night I have to figure out what to do with all these damn beads I insisted on keeping. I am guessing they will sit in the spare bedroom until spring, summer, or winter house cleaning.

No Phone

I hate forgetting my phone at home. I did that today and all day I feel I never knew what time it was. I am home now and I am happy to have my phone back. 

Giving Bad Directions

Sometimes I get evil thoughts in my head that I want to act on. Today I was walking to get lunch when I saw these two girls looking at the bus map trying map out their ride, definitely they were tourist. I had this urge to go up to them and ask them where they were going and make up some bus numbers and street names and send them on their way. All day I would have been able to wonder where they had gone and how lost I was able to get them. I could not do it even if I really wanted to. I am certain they got lost anyways, they looked like they would.

An Afternoon of Yarn

Over the week end I went shopping with a couple of friends. No not for clothes, we went to yarn stores. Yes I know you are thinking he has gone off the deep end. But for those close to me, you would have known that happened a long time ago. We ended up in two pretty cool yarn stores in Clarlsbad. Yes it is a pretty far drive for us just to go yarn shopping but yarn shopping was secondary we were picking up a wine shipment for a friend and while we were there we would taste some wine. After tasting some wine in which none of us were impressed by. One my friend renamed yelling pussy and when the server came back and asked us what he poured us last she told him the yelling pussy. I had to tell him it was actually the screaming kitty. The we headed
out in search of yarn. In the first store they had a book called the knitting man, or something close to that. On the front cover and sprinkled throughout the book were pictures of obviously gay men. I have a theory that only gay men knit. But I believe I knew that from the beginning. I did fall in love with a purple yarn but ended up leaving it after spending close to an hour in this particular store. I will have to go back and get it next time we go up. My favorite part of store number one was that they had wooden buttons that they had tagged butt wood. Each butt wood was about fifteen bucks but I was ever so tempted to buy one of each just so I can tell everyone I have butt wood on my pants. I would specifically use them on pants just for this reason. The second store was filled with many shiny yarns which one of my friends was drawn to every second she turned around. She of course put them back because each skein ranged from 40-60 bucks. I like to knit but I will never buy yarn that is that expensive. She said one day she will buy that yarn, and in my mind I said I will never ever buy that yarn! At the end of our yarn excursion we met up with Cory and some friends from out of town that were visiting and Cory wondered how we spent close to two and a half hours in yarn stores. To my it felt like a couple of hours well spent.

Biker

I was driving to work this morning and there was a guy riding his bike to I believe school. He was in his mid to late 20's and what struck me was his appearance. He had on a t shirt, track pants, his helmet and bag. I But as he is flying by the only thing I really notice is that his pants are just low enough that they are showing off about an inch and a half of his ass. It was hard to stop seeing it since every time I reached a stop light he would come flying down from behind to show his behind. At one point another biker came from behind me and it looked like he noticed the other guys lack of proper bike gear. I would think that he would notice the breeze but apparently he was clueless about it. If I am ever riding a bike down the street with an inch and a half of ass showing please shoot me, or pull my pants up so I know I am doing it!

If You Seek Amy

First Happy Birthday to my good friend Mike! Now lets move on. Stores are upset about Britney Spears song If You Seek Amy because if you really listen to it and say it slowly it sounds like F.U.C.K me. So they have now changed it to if you see Amy. This is so ridiculous. Why is it wrong for her to say all of the boys and all of the girls are begging to F. U. C. K me?? She is not 15 she is a grown woman and please how much worse is this song than any other song that talks about sex?? Please Lil Kim and Foxy Brown built their careers around making raunchy rap songs, so why is this looked so down upon?? Brit Brit should have told those stores to suck it instead of caving in, but I guess that is expecting to much from a pop star puppet.

I Know Tragic And Embarrassing

I know this is bad but I really am excited about Brit Brit going on tour. I soooo want to go when the circus tour comes to town. I know I should be ashamed but I just cant help it. Embarrassing I know

Sick

Today is not a good day. I feel sick and people want me to actually work. It is not fun at all, I just want to go home and curl up in bed. It started Saturday night when I woke up because of a horrible ear ache. Not fun! I really really want to be in bed now.

My Boyfriend Thinks I'm Blind

Today Cory asked me how everything looked in the shower without my contacts or glasses. I told him it looked fine. He then asked well is it blurry?? I told him no its not. I can see fine up to a certain point. I just cant see things far away very clearly. He apparently thought that since I use my contacts or glasses all the time that I was as blind as a bat. Its interesting to find out your boyfriend thinks of you as Mr. Magoo!

New years and Beyond

New years was fun. I had a great time hanging out with friends and then hanging out at Bourbon St and dancing the night away. It was so much fun that we ended up having to take a cab home from our friends house at 7 in the morning because we were so trashed. On the second we went wine tasting with our friends Mike and Bo. Our plan was to leave at 6 in the morning, for those of you who don't know, I hate waking up early. But I was good and woke up early. It was sort of a little Sideways trip. It was only an overnight trip but we had lots of fun. Mike memberships to a lot of places so we tasted for free every place we went to. I cant remember the exact number of tastes we had but I believe we hit about 7. We came home tired with a couple of new bottles to have with friends. I cant wait to go back next time we have to make a week end out of it. Plus Mike signed up for another wine club so even more tasting for free!!! lol.